Kazukidhiras

A little bit introduction about me, I was an introvert since I was a child and spent my whole life regretting a lot of things that I should've said as I prefer to kept it to myself.  I tend to beat myself after that for my incapability to express my opinions. Maybe I should speak more? and maybe things might change? And now, fast forward to current days. I realized that I'm more outspoken and braver in expressing my thoughts. Thanks to my best friend who has helped me. However, I still beat myself out of it for sharing my thoughts with others. Maybe I should keep things to myself? and maybe everyone would feel better? Would you rather speak less and regretting on things that you should've said? or express your opinion more and regretting hurting others?

There's no space for doubt There's no reason for us to turn away from Allah. Sky's the limit for His countless bounty. Open your eyes, Look around, Be grateful. Open the Quran, Look for Surah Ar-Rahman, Recite by Heart. https://unsplash.com/photos/1OtUkD_8svc

Do you believe in the Law of Attraction? I do. 

Dongak ke atas, pandang langit. Masih lagi cerah dan hangat. Merasa tenang akan kehadiran matahari menyinari hamparan bumi. Diri terasa selamat seolah olah lupa akan kegelapan malam semalam. Seolah bintang kecil yang menemani diri semalam telah hilang dilupakan. Cuba jalan lagi cepat-cepat menuju ke kamar. Takut hari kembali gelap. Tangisan yang disaksikan bintang semalam telah kering. Bintang seperti telah hilang. Tak kelihatan lagi. Bintang kecil jauh menyorok disana menunggu diri dipanggil insan lagi. Sesekali mengintai kelibat manusia yang biasa memanggilnya. Kelihatannya riang tatkala siang menjelma. Seolah lupa akan ketakutannya semalam. Bintang itu menunggu lagi. Masih lagi disitu ingin berbakti tanpa meminta imbalan. Hanya ingin menyinari malam. Tanpa meminta untuk menjadi mentari.  Ya, dia sedar akan dirinya. Hanyalah kerlipan bintang bukanlah bulan. Bila malam barulah insan menghargai bintang. Bila gempita barulah manusia mencari bintang.  Tiada siapa

Ada mata-mata yang memerhati dari luar gelanggang tanpa mengetahui peraturan permainan. Ada lidah-lidah yang akan rancak berbicara disaat badan berpaling dari gelanggang. Ada pula tangan-tangan yang lincah secara diam-diam menghunus pisau-pisau belati tanpa kita sedar. Ada pula yang berpura-pura alim dan berhikmah dalam melontarkan pendapat rawak tanpa sedikitpun mengetahui situasi yang dilalui manusia yang bertungkus lumus berperang dalam gelanggang halimunan. Ada pula yang secara pintar mencari kunci kepada gelanggang itu supaya dapat melangkah tangkas untuk memberikan bantuan. Namun begitu sukar sekali untuk meneropong niat sebenar manusia yang hanya berbisik dalam hatinya. Tuhan sahajalah yang lebih mengetahui iklasnya seseorang itu.

How can a person change your whole life? Change the way you look at things and how you perceive the world around us. A person that may be an ordinary people to others but not to me. The one who teaches me to how loving Allah can be to His servants by giving them obstacles and hardships. The one who soften my heart by her warm smile and laugh. I would never thought how significant a used to be stranger can be in my life. I can't even remember how did we first met a year ago, it just happened, just like that. Started with being usrahmate, then classmate, friend, listener and soulmate. I don't know until when I can be with her during this healing phase, but please surround her with better people than me. Who can fix her broken heart. Who can mend her shattered soul, that can make her feel whole again or at least feel better than before. I love her for the sake of Allah, may Allah preserve my intention. I want to show her that life doesn't end there, after