Kazukidhiras

Sedut oksigen. Hembus oksigen.  Bangun mandi makan solat tidur. Ahad Isnin Selasa Rabu Khamis Jumaat Sabtu. Pejam celik, pejam celik sekejap je kan dah nak habis tahun 2015. Dah nak tutup buku 2015 nak buka buku lain pula. Semua macam nak ada azam baru. Entah yang lama completed atau terbengkalai. Menyesal,gembira, sedih, semua ada dalam 2015. Siapa cakap kalau asyik gembira tu perfect? Siapa cakap kalau asyik sedih itu balasan? Siapa cakap kalau kau dah kaya itu capai lifegoals? 2015 banyak ajar aku benda. Dah jadi sifu bagi aku. Apa yang aku belajar? *Kejap fikir* 1) Jangan bertepuk sebelah tangan. Ini bukan in term of couple ke apa. Bagi aku more to friendship. Kalau kau nak berkawan memang tak ada masalah. Yang jadi masalah bila kau mengharap lebih dari kawan. Macam kawan baik or kawan rapat. Sebab kita takkan tahu apa dia fikir or apa yang dia anggap kat kita. So just follow the flows. 2) Nak seribu daya taknak seribu dali...

How to use some distractions to solve you problems? Yeah I used them rarely.  For example by drawing, writing, eating so snacks and so on. But, can you solve your problems by doing that? Of course not! After you are done with doing something else eventually your unsolved problems will haunt your happiness all over again. When you use the distractions to get out of the maze, actually you are running away from your burden. It's not the problems will vanish by themselves. Just cry your heart out for now. But don't cry for so long.  They will be by your side until you have courage to slay them. Don't run away. Face them. Fight them. Slay them! Build the strength from the verge of tears. Don't be afraid. You can do it! “Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear…” (Qur’an,  2:286 )

I don't really understand why is it so hard to tell other people the truth? I think most of us prefer the ugly truth rather than the sweet excuses. Innit? Maybe it's easier to tell people excuses to hide their guilt. Maybe it's easier hide the truth behind the excuses. But something that is easier doesn't mean that it's the right thing to do.  Trying to console people with the petty excuses.  Tired of them already. For me it's just easier to say that ''I just don't want to see you. That's all'' ''You are not my priority anymore.'' Silence. #np kiroro bestfriend I should go I guess. I should not appear before you. I should not 'terhegeh-hegeh' anymore. You're not the same anymore. Or it's me who changed? You're not the person that I used to know. Or it's who don't know the real you? Maybe I'm not in the list anymore. We are...

Buat sendiri ni tau hahaks Lagi dua bulan. Dulu bila cakap 2016 mesti ramai cakap '' alah lambat lagi'' Tapi, pejam celik tarik hembus nafas dah masuk Disember. Dah 5 bulan since results keluar. Syukur masih lagi dapat bernafas. Semua orang dah buka pintu masing-masing. Jejak masuk tanpa tahu masa depan. Melangkah dengan izin tuhan yang maha esa. Aku masih disini. Menunggu pintu untuk dibuka. Kunci dah ada. Tapi tak sampai segugus lagi. Ni punn buat sendiri!! Visa pun tak siap lagi.  Lot of questions make me anxious. ''Bila nak siap''  ''Bila nak dapat'' ''Kenapa yang kau tak siap lagi'' ''Kenapa yang aku dah siap?'' Stop asking me these kind of questions,please. I beg you. I can't answer that either. All I can say is In sya allah . kinda cute aye? 'Hanya dengan mengingati allah jiwamu akan tenang.' (13:28) ...