Kazukidhiras

Every night I close my eyes Every time I see darkness I frightened Why? I'm too scared that  There's no tomorrow for me I'm afraid that I'm no longer See the sunshine Be able to breath Open my eyes My sins are too many to count It's not like im afraid of death. Nope. But i wonder how can I survive  At the hereafter  I wonder what if my deed is not accepted? What if I'm carrying too many wrongdoings? Would this legs step in jannah? Would this eyes see His Raudah? Just take a moment.  Think If we can spend much time on dunya Why cant spend a minute. Remembering about death is the most brilliant person. Why? Because we are aware of our goal We see our vision  We already know what to do What? Do repent from sins And Dont repeat the mistake. Everyone is getting near to the end No one can escape Izrail is waiting

Solat dhuha. 3 minit je pun. Susah ke nak buat?  Dalam 4-5 jam pagi-pagi memang nampak sekejap. Tapi memang susah kan nak buat? Nafsu memang tak suka perkara yang baik ni. Ada je dolak dalih kan? Nak cerita satu perkara. Allah tunjuk peringatan ni kat hambaNya yang hina ini. Solat dhuha menyenangkan kehidupan. Memurahkan rezeki sang bersujud. Alkisahnya pada 7.3.2014 diri ini kena tempuhi IELTS speaking test. Memang tak dapat agak la kan soalan apa yang bakal lecturer tanya. Allah tunjuk. Allah sayang lagi kat diri ini. Allah detikkan kat hati kawan. Tanya soalan yang sama pada malam sebelum test. Allahu rabbi.. memang practice satu je soalan. Dan yang satu tu la yang ditanya. Pagi-pagi sebelum kelas start.  Rasa macam kaki ni ringan je nak melangkah. Menjejaki surau. Nak buat solat dhuha jap. Dengan pakaian yang ada. Takyah pakai telekung aku bersujud. Dengan penuh pasrah. Aku berdoa. Ya allah. Kau permudahkanlah segala urusan ku dan kawan-kawanku pada hari ini. Memang m...

Suatu petang yang tak seberapa terik.  Dah beberapa hari bermandi peluh.  Baru panas kat dunia ni. Belum lagi kat dunia satu lagi.  Yang tiada payung selain daripada rahmatnya.  Tiada pelindung selain daripada kekasih Allah. Tiba-tiba Allah titipkan di hati ini.  Suatu perasaan yang tidak dapat digambarkan.  Sedih dan syahdu.  Tanpa air mata.  Namun hati ini terluka kerana terlalu pedih. Rindu agaknya. Dengan siapa? Dengan yang menghantar signal di hati ini la.  Syukur Dia masih sayang padaku.  Tidak dibiarkan aku hanyut dengan arus.  Renyah.  Untuk terus berpaut di taliNya. Bukak youtube. Search zikir.  Dah lama mulut ni tak zikir. Sebab tu hati ini menghentak marah.  Sebab rindu.  Sebab itu la mata ni asyik pedih.  Sebab rindu. Dengar alunan indah. Senyuman mula terukir menggantikan air mata. Puas hati. Dah lepas gian kat zikir. Tu la pasal asyik den...

Thank you allah For giving me  her That can complete my soul My misery soul How can a stranger turned into a buddy How can you met us How can you glued us together Alhamdulillah Praise to Allah the most  gracious It's his blessing to have her A friend that can walk beside me Please ease our way To walk into jannah together Holding hand stepping into paradise Feeling each other's warmth Seeing each other's smiles It's so hard to say How much I thank to Allah It's hard to imagine Life without her Understanding each other Having conversations Heart to heart Tears with a hug Laugh with smile Walk with the same rhyme Alhamdulillah Praise to Allah

Surah Aal-e-Imran, Verse 185: كُلُّ نَفْسٍ ذَائِقَةُ الْمَوْتِ وَإِنَّمَا تُوَفَّوْنَ أُجُورَكُمْ يَوْمَ الْقِيَامَةِ فَمَن زُحْزِحَ عَنِ النَّارِ وَأُدْخِلَ الْجَنَّةَ فَقَدْ فَازَ وَمَا الْحَيَاةُ الدُّنْيَا إِلَّا مَتَاعُ الْغُرُورِ Every soul shall taste of death, and you shall only be paid fully your reward on the resurrection day; then whoever is removed far away from the fire and is made to enter the garden he indeed has attained the object; and the life of this world is nothing but a provision of vanities. Mata terpaku. Melihat post di Facebook.  Terkejut tahap petala ke-9.  Hati terus mengepam darah pekat dengan cepat.  Berdebar.  Takut dan sedih. Buat-buat senyum dalam tangisan.  Nak cover.  Tidak ku mahu luahkan pada insan.  Aku ada Allah.  Air mata tak dapat ditahan lagi.  Berderu mengalir di pipi yang merah padam. Sekeliling tidak ku rasa lagi.  Macam hidup dalam dunia sendiri. ...

Sad. Gloomy. Flooding in tears. I don't know why. I kept looking in my heart. Why? Dear heart. I have no idea why. Are you lonely? Nope Are you sick? Nope Are you missing someone? Yeah. I'm missing someone Who is the person you miss? I don't know. Maybe my lover. Who is he? He is our creator... Deep. Inside me missing Him. I'm speechless. Don't know what to say Don't know what to do

Solat. It's just like having a date With who? With our creator of course!  Sounds very exciting right? It's just same when we have a lover We always waited for the meeting Waited for hours for a date Waited with hope Date is just like our remedy  For everything that burdens us When someone asked me Do you have any lover? I said what. I have one! The someone asked me again With who? I smiled A grin that treasures secrets I said ALLAH.. Sounds weird isn't?  But that's the truth It's not like I'm not admire for human's love But. It's not the time now In sya allah next time I'll repair my relationship with Him first And then.. For sure he'll send me one person That really suitable for me At the right time  I believe in that For those who doesn't have any lover Or 'balak' Keep calm dude! We have Him That's enough for me -Hasbi rab...