A droplet of rain

How can a person change your whole life? Change the way you look at things and how you perceive the world around us. A person that may be an ordinary people to others but not to me. The one who teaches me to how loving Allah can be to His servants by giving them obstacles and hardships. The one who soften my heart by her warm smile and laugh.

I would never thought how significant a used to be stranger can be in my life. I can't even remember how did we first met a year ago, it just happened, just like that. Started with being usrahmate, then classmate, friend, listener and soulmate. I don't know until when I can be with her during this healing phase, but please surround her with better people than me. Who can fix her broken heart. Who can mend her shattered soul, that can make her feel whole again or at least feel better than before.

I love her for the sake of Allah, may Allah preserve my intention.

I want to show her that life doesn't end there, after being rejected by a guy. This whole world is much more bigger and meaningful than that. She may thought that I'm her savior or guardian, but I know how capable I'm. Just a weak servant who can't even move my limbs without His wills. How caring Allah can be after giving her lots of helping hand after making her going through trials. Only He can give the key to the lock, not me, not any other people.

I'm honored, being a part of the raindrops that come to a dry land. 

I'm blessed to see how fast she's progressing from fall, she crawled slowly out of the storm sent by Her God, breathlessly. I'm proud of her, how strong she actually is. And it amazes me how firm I can be in waking her up from her fairy tale dream to this devastating real life. Yup, I have to slap her cheek with harsh words of truth. I've to open the curtain so that the light come in and shock her with lots of questions. At least I can make her think about how things actually work in this mean world. 

She's an innocent girl. I'm pretty sure that guy will regret and come to your leg and beg for you to get together again. And please, don't even look at his restless eyes, close your ears and turn you back against him. Don't listen to whispers of shaytan. May Allah give you strength to do that when it comes. 

Please. 

Don't give him another chance to hurt you again like he did before. 

I refuse to believe that he'll change, I'm sorry. 

He'll feel ashamed to beg for you if he knew how you suffered after he let you go. 

Let him know.

Don't ever think about he will fetch you up when it's time.

or else I'll get mad.

I'll get real disappointed this time.

Don't let my effort in vain beb, I'm just a droplet of rain.

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